November Greetings

November is finally here! I'm so glad that October is finally gone. Don't get me wrong it had it's ups but all of the Halloween buzz drives me crazy. I had a waitress at iHop dressed up and her makeup was too creepy for me. I definitely felt uncomfortable when I got asked at work to decorate for Halloween. I like the pumpkins and falling leaves of fall but none of the skeletons and blood, witches and other creepy things. Ugh. Halloween is one of those holidays that I completely detest. I can't even get myself to tell someone "Happy Halloween" I know a lot of people don't share the same views as me. Sadly, I heard other Christians talking about their costumes and trick or treating and what not and it saddens me that they acknowledge it and are completely okay with it. This year I had the opportunity to go trick or treating for the first time in my life. We had to take the girls from work so I was obligated to go and while we were out there it seemed so innocent. A family environment, happy people, giving candy to strangers butttt.... that's all a mask. The problem is what that day stands for: a satanic celebration and there's many evil spirits out there. But of course, everyone has their convictions. I don't feel comfortable celebrating or acknowledging it so I'm very glad it's in the past now.

As November begins, we finally have colder weather! Yay! Finally starting to feel the cold and we can wear boots now, bring out the hoodies, the fuzzy socks, sweatpants... yesss! I live for comfort clothing hehehe.

^  The picture perfectly describes us Californians.  60 degree weather is enough to bust out our scarves and boots and big jackets. (P.S. it is getting colder than 60 degrees too)

Pre-Thanksgiving humor haha. Pretend to be your girlfriend for a delicious thanksgiving meal? I'm down hahaha. Actually it depends who you are. But some holiday movies have come out showing positive results such as finding your soul mate. (Watch Holiday in Handcuffs) Maybe I'll give it a try this year. I still have a couple weeks to think about it ;) 

Anyways, cheers to November! Let the Christmas music begin xD

P. S. S. I got my bottom braces today. My mouth is in pain!! Wahh it feels so weird. I just want to eat ㅋㅋㅋ 

seven whole days

It's been seven whole days
without your embrace.
I wanna see your face
I got some things to say.
Was just a week ago,
[I] said, I love you [baby] girl

seven whole days, seven whole days
since I heard your voice

Then a breath, a pause, [and you're gone]

I miss you baby girl.
You came into our lives 10 months ago and just like that you're gone. I miss your dimples, your smile without any teeth, your laugh, your dancing ballerina feet. You were so close to walking. I miss hugging you. I miss feeling your feet kicking me in the mornings and seeing those happy glimmering eyes staring back at me. I wish you a safe journey wherever life takes you. I thought I'd see you grow up but life is full of surprises. God bless you and protect you wherever you go. I love you mi bombon. </3

Guy: Do you like Star Wars?

Me: No, I have only seen bits and pieces of it.

Guy: Do you play video games?

Me: No. My idea of a video game is Pac Man.

Guy: Do you read comic books?

Me: No.

Guy: Do you like shopping?

Me: No.

Guy: Do you play any sports?

Me: No.

Guy: Are you normal?

Me: I just don't fit into these average categories.


After having this conversation I felt quite pathetic. I felt like I had no hobbies or interests. In my head I was thinking I like watching movies, reading, watching Korean dramas, etc but well that doesn't seem to be the most exciting of hobbies. People are drawn to interesting people and well my list didn't seem very captivating. But then again I'm a very introverted person and I like a lot of quiet time. Sure when the time arises I love to hang out with friends and I enjoy a good hike but I'm also okay watching Netflix on my bed, by myself haha.  Should I marathon the Star Wars series or start reading comic books? Or should I start playing video games? Probably not. Like I mentioned, I don't fit into your "average" categories. I did feel quite boring saying "No" to everything but maybe it just means I can't be read at the surface or with the most common categories. I like words, I like writing, I like proofreading essays, I like scrabble, I like blogging. I am me. & my interests may differ than yours but I'm not pathetic, I am unique. ;)

P.s. if we all claim to be unique, then are we really unique? hehe

a new season

I feel like this scripture has been speaking to me lately. So many things going on around me but in the middle of the chaos I know God is in control and he's saying "Call to Me". He is right there with the answers, with a wonderful plan and he's ready to act. As this month ends and a new one comes, I feel a new season coming. God is ready to pour out great things. We may not understand what He does at time but His timing is perfect. There's no better solution than letting go and letting God take control. I'm ready!

Asian Love

I know all of my friends are tired of hearing me rave about Korea and Koreans. I know I'm labeled as the "Korean girl". (Since anything related to Korea catches my attention.) I can't help that I'm interested. I truly believe I have an Asian heart.

 It may have started with me watching Korean dramas but after coming back from Korea, I feel changed. I feel that my love for that country and that culture has sincerely grown. I don't know how to explain it but my heart yearns to go back. I know we have all heard the cheesy saying, "I feel an emptiness inside", and I wouldn't describe it like that per se but I am constantly thinking and wishing I was back at Korea.

Please don't misunderstand. My desires to return are not shallow. They no longer are because I want to meet a famous Korean star or visit the sites where dramas were filmed; I yearn to be among the Korean people. I miss the lifestyle. I miss the food. I miss studying there. I miss hearing the language daily. I miss the street vendors. I miss buying pants that were my size in length!! I constantly dream that I am back in Seoul walking among the streets. There are so many things I still want to do in Korea. I truly long to go back.

One of the things I miss the most is the food. Most of my Korean dreams are food related. Unfortunately, I don't have any Korean restaurants close to me. So I have to go out of my way in order to find and eat Korean food. This does not happen very often. However, today I decided to make one of my favorite Korean dishes, Japchae, stir fry. I was a bit nervous about the outcome because I didn't have all of the ingredients and I moved some things around. It was my first time making it and on my own at that. I didn't really have anyone to ask questions to so I just kept going. 2 hours later I was looking at a colorful finished product. I was so proud I couldn't stop looking at it. I HAD TO take a picture with the correct lighting to try and capture all of its beauty. (yes, it was beautiful!) I stared at it for a while before nervously taking the first bite. I was a bit nervous but I got to say it was delightful.

This was quite an exciting experience for me. It has only encouraged me to try other Korean dishes. If I can't go to it, I will bring it to me!  내가 정말 한국 음식 좋아해요 <3

P.S. The egg had quite "complicated" instructions but it felt very Korean. I was quite proud of the egg portion of this dish. It's worthy of its own picture. & I gently and strategically located them all over the plate. ㅋㅋㅋ

S E P T E M B E R 1 1

I know this post would have made more sense yesterday but better late than never right? Besides the families of the victims don't remember once a year, they remember every day. I can't believe it's been 14 YEARS! 14 years since terrorists came into our country and hijacked some planes. I can't say I remember every detail of that morning like many others do but I can say I remember that morning.
I remember I was in 5th grade.
I remember everybody talking about the news during class.
I remember stopping class to watch the news.
I remember my confusion.
I remember making cards for the firefighters.
I remember the special edition Times edition we read in class regarding 9/11
I remember a poem I wrote about the incident. (Then I called it a song)
I remember.

& now as I reflect on that day, I thank God for the opportunity to live another day and I thank God for the freedoms I have in this country. I thank God for the firefighters, the police, volunteers and all those who risked and gave their lives on that day. God Bless America and may He comfort all of the families affected by this tragedy. <3