road kill

"Thou shall not kill"

Nobody wants to be known as a killer (I hope). It's not something you would necessarily be bragging about or something to be proud of. Of course, it depends on what you're killing and the reasons behind it. Killing humans well that's what we'd call murder and not what my focus is on tonight.

I want to talk about those shameful deaths one is responsible for... on the road.  Haha. I hear it all the time "you're a bad driver" and well I've come to terms with it. However, I have no speeding tickets or accidents on my record so props to me. (Let's hope I didn't jinx it). Anyways, off the record I do have a killing record. 😞 Once you tell it many times, I becomes a funny story but still a sad one to tell. I remember driving with a friend once and out of nowhere I hear a thud on my windshield. A LOUD thud. Turns out a bird had crashed into my car. I didn't want to believe it but sure enough when I made a u-turn, a helpless bird was lying on the ground. I felt so guilty even though it was it's own fault for crashing into me right?

Now, today I was driving to work around 6am. The roads were clear and lonely and I was half asleep not really mentally present.  All of a sudden.... I went off the road and crashed into a tree! Just kidding. Como dice mi mom, ni Dios lo quiera. 😉 Anyways, up ahead of me I saw a toad, a big toad, hopping on in the middle of the road. I thought it was kinda cute. Its not a sight you see every day. Bunnies, deer and coyotes are more common. So I kept driving and all of a sudden.... THUD! Yes, I ran it over. I looked in the rearview mirror and sure enough there was no hopping toad on the road. I continued on to work saddened by this toad who would no longer live. Its life suddenly stopped as it strolled down the street. I was really disturbed. I was hoping to find some comfort on the drive home hoping it was just injured and not dead. But, not everybody gets a happily ever after. When I drove by all I saw was a pile of red insides scattered all over the road. It really was heartbreaking to see. I felt guilty and responsible for such an awful death with its scattered remains.

R I P dear toad.
I'm very sorry.